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Sunday, October 28, 2007 @ 2:43 PM
exasperated..



Seriously, i am very tired both literally and metaphorically.

it was a really easy week but my body is just getting weaker because its minus minus physical strain and a plus plus mental stress. How can i even remain functional despite inedible food and periodically disturbed sleep? Sometimes im just thinking that all these could be a mistake, a very huge mistake. It shouldnt have happened this way but it did. And if there is this button with the word "inedible" written on it in my cookhouse's receptivity survey i would have pressed that, i would have. Seriously? i have really got enough troubles to deal with and now that someone just casually dropped a bomb shell on me

"Hey you know what u've juz won a 6days 5 nights field camp thats gonna span over the next weekend!, Enjoy!!! Cheers!! "

Tell me, how am i suppose to remain calm, sane, and mentally undisturbed? Seriously? I cannot. I couldnt find out what went wrong because apparently i felt that my discipline was not problematic. How can people be mean and still get away with things? I have never cheated on anyone, bullied anyone, did anything mean enough to upset anyone but yet i am ALWAYS always on that losing end. So does this karma thing even exist or its just my pure naiveness thats causing me to think that way?

Well im sick of being nice... Nice or not nice human beings die eventually. Nice or not nice there will still be villains in this world no matter how hard we try. Nice or not nice doesnt gives you an edge over anyone else to strike a lottery or not. Nice or not nice the ending is still the same. See? thats the defining sentence. THE ENDING IS STILL THE SAME. i cannot believe i actually be bother to help others when im not even demanding anything in return i just hope that one very fine day when i needed help someone can help me. But im just being naive i guess because it will never happen.

It has been a really long and bad week... and next weekend i would be banish into this forrest of wonders where i have to survive for 6 days 5 nights, Kudos isnt it.
Spent my weekend watching the final few episodes of Grey's Anatomy Season2. It was really awesome... Well i guess i'll just stop over here becuase im getting really tired and all...

in these times of emergency i landed upon all i could do i pray for miracles to happen...


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